I am in the middle of a depressive episode.
My apartment is so messy, I have piles of laundry to do, I just started a new class, and I’m sure that if my brain could focus, my to-do list would be a million miles long.
I can’t focus, though.
I can’t finish a book, which is really strange for me.
The only things that sound even vaguely nice are sleeping and crying.
Everything else seems too hard. In the back of my mind, I know that tidying the living room is not a big deal. I just wish I could get myself to feel that way. I don’t know how to push through this other than laying down and waiting for it to pass. I have therapy tomorrow, but that doesn’t help me today.
I’m ingesting tons of caffeine and it doesn’t seem to help at all. I don’t want this to turn into something worse than a depressive episode.
I’m going to take a shower, maybe wash these cobwebs off my brain.
Being dressed and clean should help, right? Right.
Anybody have any advice? I could really use it.