Small Victories

I had a bit of a reminder today of how bad I fucked (excuse my language) my life up.

Normally, I would have wallowed in self-hatred all day, done nothing, possibly drank, and in general gave up on life, despite my prior motivation to do some housework and feel productive.

I changed my “normally” today. I did wallow in self-hatred, but only for a little while.  I picked myself up out of it and I put a dent in the housework.  It was not quite as fulfilling as I had hoped, but I did something.  I didn’t give up

That, for me, is a small victory in how I handle life.  I can consciously make better decisions, and not give in to my depression and addiction.

Another small victory?

I think Whimzy has enough jeans for a while 😉  Thank you thrift stores and goodwill!

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2 thoughts on “Small Victories

  1. Hey…you may or may not have heard this but I thought you might like it today:

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    The Man In The Glass Peter Dale Wimbrow Sr.  
     

    When you get what you want in your struggle for self
    And the world makes you king for a day
    Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
    And see what that man has to say.

    For it isn’t your father, or mother, or wife 
    Whose judgment upon you must pass
    The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
    Is the one staring back from the glass.

    He’s the fellow to please – never mind all the rest
    For he’s with you, clear to the end
    And you’ve passed your most difficult, dangerous test
    If the man in the glass is your friend.

    You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years
    And get pats on the back as you pass
    But your final reward will be heartache and tears
    If you’ve cheated the man in the glass. 
    *****************

    Somedays you wake up and that Man looks just fine…those are the days my head is a little calmer and I have nothing negative to say about myself. I wish you a few more days like that 🙂

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