Thought distortions are things that people with mental illness do…. ALOT. Heck, healthy people do it, too, sometimes.
A link for some examples!
This morning I had a really bad episode. It hiked my anxiety up so far I almost threw up trying to go get some labs at the hospital done.
My hubby, who ALWAYS calls on both of his breaks, didn’t call on his first break. I freaked out. I went into panic mode. “What if he was in a car accident?” “What if he decided he is sick of me and just left forever?” My thoughts circled around all of the terrible things that might have happened. I called him 46 times. Yup…46 times. Ridiculous, right? At the time, my mind rationalized that if he got in an accident, somebody would pick up eventually. I worked myself up to being physically sick. I skipped my hospital labs and went home before I could grocery shop, which I had planned to do after the hospital labs.
His second break time comes around and he calls. I could physically feel my chest loosen and I could breathe again. He ended up having to work through his first break.
The lesson: thought distortions are real and can really affect behavior. I did my best to thought challenge and distract myself, but this time it didn’t work.
That doesn’t mean I am a failure, I just had a bad morning. After getting my stability back, I did go grocery shopping. I missed a bunch of other housework, though. No biggie, I’ll work on it tomorrow.